On this day, - November 20th, comes the first snowfall in dear magical Sackville.
And with this, upon coinciding with Midnight Madness - a night of shopping and friendly gallantry - we are pleasantly reminded that Christmas is just around the corner.
For some this means going home to family, for others it may mean the first Christmas of independance. Some celebrate with new babies, or new spouses. Some find it to be just another day, because they have no one to spend it with, or not enough money to share gifts.
It is for those I wish a happy Christmas to. The people who struggle each day to find food or a social connection with another need the magic of Christmas the most. It is for them that the holiday began, after all. Christ's birth was to provide for "the least of these" - and our sharing of wealth on the day of celebration should be in good spirits, not in spite; it should be friendly and not competitive. It should remind us all that we lead meaningful lives of equal value - or inspire those who never knew.
I live a comfortable life, even as a university student, because I was born into a family which not only was able to financially provide for my life and my education but because my family supports one another. I am so lucky to have people around me to challenge me and love me and support me.
Then, I remind myself it is selfish to harvest this love without giving it away. That is the toughest part. Fear of rejection, attachment, and pride get in the way and produce a shyness which does no one any good. I wish to challenge that fear this holiday season. I also - more importantly - challenge others to stand up against the fear in their path this Christmas. Not because every day isn't a good enough reason - but Christmas becomes a time when people slow down just a little bit, and begin to remember their humanity for just a second.
Love Actually says "Christmas is all around, and the feeling grows." Love is actually everywhere, and it is at Christmas that North America and other parts in celebration have some sort of communal understanding of the spirit in the air.
Why do we lose this awareness the rest of the time we are among each other? Is it too much of a burden for the 364 "real" days of the year? Does it get in the way of our lives?
In my opinion it is our "real" lives that get in the way of the Christmas feeling of warmth, companionship, and understanding which is possible all year long. In the understanding of Christmas we come to understand the feeling of Peace. In the recollection of family memories we come to be comforted by our privilege and joyfulness shared.
In this time of the year, I try to remember - and I urge anyone reading this to as well - to think of those less fortunate to have a support network of loving people. Try to remember the ones for whom Christmas can't come alive in a moment of hope, joy, peace, and love. Give something of yourself this upcoming month, and even year. Be a storyteller - be a friend - be a hand to hold for someone that needs it.
I don't want stuff this Christmas, my room(s) are too messy as it is. I don't need things other than rent, food, tuition - because that's my career I'm lucky enough to have. I wish many more the possibility to have this life in the future. Give wisely. Think critically about Christmas - it's not meant for the wealthy to remain wealthy. It's a humbling time of community when done right. It's for the poor to feel wealthy. It's for the poor to feel cared for.
Live carefully. Love all. Hope for a Peaceful day for the Earth.
Happy Christmas. <3
Saturday, November 20, 2010
Thursday, August 05, 2010
humbled by newness
Do you ever find you get stuck in a rut of pride? and it's near impossible to get out of that groove - meaning you irritate everyone around you while you try to convince them you're right?
Well, my realization of this has come over the past few months due to being back at home in Athabasca - where I know nearly everyone and am so wrapped up in the politics of my home United Church that I'm starting get stressed about it.
BUT last night when I went to Solomon's Porch - a new church with an Evengelical feel, but a social justice approach (aka my kind of church) - I was brought to my knees. It was not my home church, and yet the people whom I know there/run the church are welcoming and inviting so it feels like it could be (if i were not leaving in a few weeks to head back East). The thing is though - they are open about a lot of the issues they're facing personally, and with the church, and it is refreshing to hear that. Especially since it doesn't interfere with the flow of the church 'service' as it is.
Also, I didn't know everyone so I was humbled by the fact that I couldn't willy-nilly talk to anyone like they knew me, which forced me to recluse a little bit, and be - what i haven't been in a while - noticably socially awkward. :O
Oh well, I feel challenged on the surface because of that ... not to mention the message of the night- which was God's promises, and how humans often misinterpret them. :)
All around a good night. Came home, had a beer, wrote, went to sleep. :)
Well, my realization of this has come over the past few months due to being back at home in Athabasca - where I know nearly everyone and am so wrapped up in the politics of my home United Church that I'm starting get stressed about it.
BUT last night when I went to Solomon's Porch - a new church with an Evengelical feel, but a social justice approach (aka my kind of church) - I was brought to my knees. It was not my home church, and yet the people whom I know there/run the church are welcoming and inviting so it feels like it could be (if i were not leaving in a few weeks to head back East). The thing is though - they are open about a lot of the issues they're facing personally, and with the church, and it is refreshing to hear that. Especially since it doesn't interfere with the flow of the church 'service' as it is.
Also, I didn't know everyone so I was humbled by the fact that I couldn't willy-nilly talk to anyone like they knew me, which forced me to recluse a little bit, and be - what i haven't been in a while - noticably socially awkward. :O
Oh well, I feel challenged on the surface because of that ... not to mention the message of the night- which was God's promises, and how humans often misinterpret them. :)
All around a good night. Came home, had a beer, wrote, went to sleep. :)
Saturday, July 17, 2010
Yearly update
kaljdsf;kauweio;rnasvioahf;lkeFA;HO2r9ae;lSDFKLMA;KJVAO;KLm.
THERE
wow that feels a bit better. :)
Ok, what's new? boys, housesitting, friend stress, a busy and ever speeding up world seems to be going by too fast on self-destruct mode.
also I'm tired so everything seems more dramatic.
do you ever feel like you get haunted by names? like you meet one person and then another, and maybe another... that have the same name?? I've had this happen multiple times, and by the second month or so it starts to really sink in how mannerisms and other crap like that are the same between the name-sharers. Take Peter for instance: well there's my boss Peter, and then Peter in res - who, yes I had an insane crush on (turned out to be more a friend-crush. wish I knew that at the time...). Not saying my feelings toward them are the same, but they're interested in very similar spiritual concepts, etc, and Peter W (res) seems like a bit like what Peter (boss) would have been like when he was young...
Example #2, within 2 weeks I met 2 boys named Geoff (spelled the same, said the same, etc...) - i have a fantastic long term opportunity to get to know Geoff (1, we'll say...) who will be in Sackville for the fall semester, and hanging around getting to know me. Geoff (2) is the recipient of my first kiss. he's a beautiful boy (atleast in looks) and we had the most romantic (at the time - perhaps sensual...?) night last weekend as we shared sleeping quarters, but haven't heard from him since. In this case I can't say mannerisms are the same...but I am still baffled that within two weeks I am RANDOMLY and quite serindipously introduced to both. SOMETHING MUST BE UP. GOD, are you doing this? whyyyyyy?
anyways, I just hope things continue to be this freakily coincidental, it keeps me on my toes.
Not much else is new, I'm housesitting and loving the new digs, and yesterday was a fantastic day of independance in the city for a work meeting. I am so lucky and blessed to have opportunities to be so close to friends and even jobs like at AU. i thank the universe for providing and keeping everything in cycle. though I am still searching for the true purpose of my life and for the universe as well. whyyyy are things so confusing: well, as Dan Mangan says: if all this were easy it wouldn't matter how it ends. :) words to live by, I'd say.
yet, ms. burns brought up an excellent point too, which i'm not sure if it contrasts or enhances Mangan's point "It's all SO easy." as a way to motivate and stay ahead.
anyways, fod for thought, and allows me to rant.
goodnight world.
<3
-Jude
THERE
wow that feels a bit better. :)
Ok, what's new? boys, housesitting, friend stress, a busy and ever speeding up world seems to be going by too fast on self-destruct mode.
also I'm tired so everything seems more dramatic.
do you ever feel like you get haunted by names? like you meet one person and then another, and maybe another... that have the same name?? I've had this happen multiple times, and by the second month or so it starts to really sink in how mannerisms and other crap like that are the same between the name-sharers. Take Peter for instance: well there's my boss Peter, and then Peter in res - who, yes I had an insane crush on (turned out to be more a friend-crush. wish I knew that at the time...). Not saying my feelings toward them are the same, but they're interested in very similar spiritual concepts, etc, and Peter W (res) seems like a bit like what Peter (boss) would have been like when he was young...
Example #2, within 2 weeks I met 2 boys named Geoff (spelled the same, said the same, etc...) - i have a fantastic long term opportunity to get to know Geoff (1, we'll say...) who will be in Sackville for the fall semester, and hanging around getting to know me. Geoff (2) is the recipient of my first kiss. he's a beautiful boy (atleast in looks) and we had the most romantic (at the time - perhaps sensual...?) night last weekend as we shared sleeping quarters, but haven't heard from him since. In this case I can't say mannerisms are the same...but I am still baffled that within two weeks I am RANDOMLY and quite serindipously introduced to both. SOMETHING MUST BE UP. GOD, are you doing this? whyyyyyy?
anyways, I just hope things continue to be this freakily coincidental, it keeps me on my toes.
Not much else is new, I'm housesitting and loving the new digs, and yesterday was a fantastic day of independance in the city for a work meeting. I am so lucky and blessed to have opportunities to be so close to friends and even jobs like at AU. i thank the universe for providing and keeping everything in cycle. though I am still searching for the true purpose of my life and for the universe as well. whyyyy are things so confusing: well, as Dan Mangan says: if all this were easy it wouldn't matter how it ends. :) words to live by, I'd say.
yet, ms. burns brought up an excellent point too, which i'm not sure if it contrasts or enhances Mangan's point "It's all SO easy." as a way to motivate and stay ahead.
anyways, fod for thought, and allows me to rant.
goodnight world.
<3
-Jude
Sunday, November 08, 2009
Wander Across the Waves of Discontent
Lost and buoyant, drifting in this boat
you come to mind as I continue to float
What's the world like past these shallow waves?
This I ask ye, the experienced sailor.
I've picked enough flowers of romantic notions
and plucked away my disinterest and shame,
tossed them into the oceans.
The teas and coffeespoons in foreign lands
I'm sure would help me think. Because the
water here's polluted and it's causing me to sink.
Capsizing, I know, is a possible fear,
but it's happened before and I've cried all those tears.
I'll travel along across this meadow of waves,
past many deep, scary caves,
with the intention of forgetting all the yesterdays.
Next time you go can I sit at your side?
Cocktail in hand, and I'll bring my pride.
If that's what it takes, but really I hope
you would prefer to drive bikes up and down
the coast of this lake. Portend to think and
splatter some ink bout the romance we'll determinedly make.
You'll fill up film and I'll fire up the kiln
and, thus, our evening is beautifully cast.
Of friendships in the past which have advanced
this fast, I was told it would never last.
But this seems hopeful and I wish you'd take control,
I need encouragement and support.
When it comes to hooking up I'd rather you push.
I'll be your bitch if you'll be my slave.
And if hard and fast is all you're prepared to give,
I'll open myself to the seafarer's waves.
you come to mind as I continue to float
What's the world like past these shallow waves?
This I ask ye, the experienced sailor.
I've picked enough flowers of romantic notions
and plucked away my disinterest and shame,
tossed them into the oceans.
The teas and coffeespoons in foreign lands
I'm sure would help me think. Because the
water here's polluted and it's causing me to sink.
Capsizing, I know, is a possible fear,
but it's happened before and I've cried all those tears.
I'll travel along across this meadow of waves,
past many deep, scary caves,
with the intention of forgetting all the yesterdays.
Next time you go can I sit at your side?
Cocktail in hand, and I'll bring my pride.
If that's what it takes, but really I hope
you would prefer to drive bikes up and down
the coast of this lake. Portend to think and
splatter some ink bout the romance we'll determinedly make.
You'll fill up film and I'll fire up the kiln
and, thus, our evening is beautifully cast.
Of friendships in the past which have advanced
this fast, I was told it would never last.
But this seems hopeful and I wish you'd take control,
I need encouragement and support.
When it comes to hooking up I'd rather you push.
I'll be your bitch if you'll be my slave.
And if hard and fast is all you're prepared to give,
I'll open myself to the seafarer's waves.
Thursday, November 05, 2009
There isn`t much I feel I need. A solid soul and the blood I bleed.
I want you more than you know. In more ways than one. I want your body. I want to caress your skin. I want your heart. I want you to let me in. I want your soul. It`s more beautiful than a thousand trees created by the perfect order. I want to take it on an adventure, and I hope you`ll want to reciprocate. I want to give you my virginity, because honey it`s a ticking time bomb, bitching with chastity.
A kiss isn`t a relationship. A kiss is an interface. A dialogue. A discomfort. A release. A system of beliefs. I don`t know what to say to move from friends to more, but if we can`t reach top score, I`ll hold on to now forever.
Let me in. Don`t you dare push me away. Come to me as a voice of confidence. I promise I will (not) pretend you`re just another voice in my mind. I though I knew your kind, though I`m only learning, now, you`re beyond my most extreme surprise.
You`ve enlivened me more than a religion. Tradition is comforting, but the soul at rest is unprofessionally distraught.
Your eyes. They still mystify me. Like the stars, moon and Milky Way, life is revealed and reflected from your eyes. Mirrors of life are everywhere. Look to them for reflection, not each other. Consultation, Desperation, and Elevation, but never reflection. Figure it out while we talk. Don`t pretend it all falls together. Be spontaneous to delicious life. Be excited for delivering beauty.
Become what you`ve been trying to be.
It`s ok.
A kiss isn`t a relationship. A kiss is an interface. A dialogue. A discomfort. A release. A system of beliefs. I don`t know what to say to move from friends to more, but if we can`t reach top score, I`ll hold on to now forever.
Let me in. Don`t you dare push me away. Come to me as a voice of confidence. I promise I will (not) pretend you`re just another voice in my mind. I though I knew your kind, though I`m only learning, now, you`re beyond my most extreme surprise.
You`ve enlivened me more than a religion. Tradition is comforting, but the soul at rest is unprofessionally distraught.
Your eyes. They still mystify me. Like the stars, moon and Milky Way, life is revealed and reflected from your eyes. Mirrors of life are everywhere. Look to them for reflection, not each other. Consultation, Desperation, and Elevation, but never reflection. Figure it out while we talk. Don`t pretend it all falls together. Be spontaneous to delicious life. Be excited for delivering beauty.
Become what you`ve been trying to be.
It`s ok.
Wednesday, September 23, 2009
It's Time.
Hello Blogworld.
So. It's been far too long since I've sat at this (ok, well, any) desk and just WRITE. So this is what i plan on doing tonight.
Why tonight? Because I don't plan on sleeping for a while, though I feel more like output than input tonight. In other words, I would rather write than read. A further reason is that I have just went for an exhilarating walk in the Sackville nighttime mist with Nathan and Derek, two frosh from 2nd East this year.
I then took a shower because I felt extremely mosit after walking in the mist... and now need to wait for my hair to dry.
These are the means by which I have sat down with excited fingers. Though my motivation for writing is also important. And it is connected to the events earlier tonight. Walks are important to clear out one's mind and serve as a refreshing breath. Although solitary walks often are necessary, they usually end up filling one's brain up even more and allow no room for output.
Walks with other people are essential for two reasons. They allow you to grow in your relationships with those whom you are walking. They also allow and create a very healthy environment for output. From everyone. And that is the greatest stress reliever.
I worry I do not make the best use of my time, or my words, or my capacity for ideas. Though unfortunately the time spent worrying is a larger waste of time and results in lower productivity.
Why am I rambling about theoretical stuff? I intended to debrief about the walk. I intended to ramble about my pursued goal and my secret goal in life. I intended to be just a little bit dramatic. But what happened...I got ahead of myself. I jumped to conclusions, assumptions, and broad definitions without actually understanding the specifics.
Why am I so scared of writing it all down... because we all know the permanence of words. The minute they are down they cannot be taken back. They can be forgiven but not entirely erased.
Anyways. What is it exactly that I am so dreadfully (oh, come on. stop being so dramatic...) afraid of saying?
I think I like Nathan. There. That's it. Let the crazy obsession begin.
Except no. I don't want to crazy obsessed over a 'boy'. I want to actually become his friend. And talk about things, like tonight. And gain his trust. And become someone respectable.
I actually want to be an artist. I want to save the world with NGO's but I want to be a crazy artist living in a loft in Brooklyn or LA, or Toronto or Vancouver. I dream of the extravagent lifestyle. But I am so convinced I have to be practical. WHY!?!
I want to tell Nathan that I actually want to be an artist. If I had my way I would paint and draw and take pictures all day long. And then write about it.
I am dreadfully afraid and unmotivated with school this year. I wonder if I'm taking all the wrong classes, or if I am just not applying myself in a way which will be 'prodcutive'. I want to do well. But as always, i want to care about what I'm working on.
In my life, whatever I do, I will journal. In pictures, and in words. In the moments full of life, and in the moments of ultimate desperation. I want to be able to have a clear head going into my daily life. i want to know how to get all the emotional stuff out of the way so I can be scientific about my papers and reading. With application and attention to detail. Scientific precision is necessary in so many disciplines. I cannot imagine a life without the study of science. It has caused a great amount of controversy, though it has proved to be SO important to our lives.
One question I have just begun to consider is what lies in the future for the world and for all of us? If we will soon run out of resources and all that goes along with that, then how do we expect to perpetuate our life of technology. Will our creative outputs feel left out if the corporations take over? Will machines and 'faster ways of doing things' eventually dissolve our world away?
I hope not. And I hope that we soon learn ways to minimize our use of electronics so that we are no longer dependant on them for living. That is one goal I hope we succeed in completing. I want to see a more ethical use of the technology we are given. And while there are many large scale projects already existing, there are many more undercover individuals and organizations which undermine the progress made by the overachievers.
I hope we soon realise the world must become larger with some more restrictive boundaries, to minimize our travel and consumption. This may only need to be a temporary goal if sustainable energy is developed though, because with sustainable energy we can power the ships and planes and other modes of transportation. This allows for more transportation at a lower cost to the environment.
Eventually a cohabitable planet would be amazing. If we could all organize a system of trade where the economy and environment equaled a net benefit we would be golden. I hope to see serious progress towards that on all levels of class, religion, gender, and nationality within my lifetime. It must be possible. War is not innate. With education the instinct towards violence can be surpressed and mediated. With academic education the possibility for learning operation of armoury is deleted. With guns and violence not being present we are likely to be productive, healthy, and unstressed. Trade and political wars would also be marked as irrelavent.
I suppose I am very much a political idealist, though I see the struggle in change. I believe that art can change people. It is a powerful force. Unfortunately it is commonly used discreetly or with negative intentions through advertising, publications, and home decor. Without active attention to a piece of art, the beauty and intellectual stimulation is lost to the subconscious. I wish there was a way for us to recap an art sighting with people on the street. Then they would understand why they are attracted to the art and attach a word to that confused emotion they were struggling with while viewing the piece.
I want to extend this but I think I should get enough sleep tonight. It is nevessary.
I hope to have figured a few things out with OTHER people awful soon.
Maybe I'll actually be able to carry on a conversation about this stuff out loud in public. egads! :P
Good night non descript public world. :)
-Judi
So. It's been far too long since I've sat at this (ok, well, any) desk and just WRITE. So this is what i plan on doing tonight.
Why tonight? Because I don't plan on sleeping for a while, though I feel more like output than input tonight. In other words, I would rather write than read. A further reason is that I have just went for an exhilarating walk in the Sackville nighttime mist with Nathan and Derek, two frosh from 2nd East this year.
I then took a shower because I felt extremely mosit after walking in the mist... and now need to wait for my hair to dry.
These are the means by which I have sat down with excited fingers. Though my motivation for writing is also important. And it is connected to the events earlier tonight. Walks are important to clear out one's mind and serve as a refreshing breath. Although solitary walks often are necessary, they usually end up filling one's brain up even more and allow no room for output.
Walks with other people are essential for two reasons. They allow you to grow in your relationships with those whom you are walking. They also allow and create a very healthy environment for output. From everyone. And that is the greatest stress reliever.
I worry I do not make the best use of my time, or my words, or my capacity for ideas. Though unfortunately the time spent worrying is a larger waste of time and results in lower productivity.
Why am I rambling about theoretical stuff? I intended to debrief about the walk. I intended to ramble about my pursued goal and my secret goal in life. I intended to be just a little bit dramatic. But what happened...I got ahead of myself. I jumped to conclusions, assumptions, and broad definitions without actually understanding the specifics.
Why am I so scared of writing it all down... because we all know the permanence of words. The minute they are down they cannot be taken back. They can be forgiven but not entirely erased.
Anyways. What is it exactly that I am so dreadfully (oh, come on. stop being so dramatic...) afraid of saying?
I think I like Nathan. There. That's it. Let the crazy obsession begin.
Except no. I don't want to crazy obsessed over a 'boy'. I want to actually become his friend. And talk about things, like tonight. And gain his trust. And become someone respectable.
I actually want to be an artist. I want to save the world with NGO's but I want to be a crazy artist living in a loft in Brooklyn or LA, or Toronto or Vancouver. I dream of the extravagent lifestyle. But I am so convinced I have to be practical. WHY!?!
I want to tell Nathan that I actually want to be an artist. If I had my way I would paint and draw and take pictures all day long. And then write about it.
I am dreadfully afraid and unmotivated with school this year. I wonder if I'm taking all the wrong classes, or if I am just not applying myself in a way which will be 'prodcutive'. I want to do well. But as always, i want to care about what I'm working on.
In my life, whatever I do, I will journal. In pictures, and in words. In the moments full of life, and in the moments of ultimate desperation. I want to be able to have a clear head going into my daily life. i want to know how to get all the emotional stuff out of the way so I can be scientific about my papers and reading. With application and attention to detail. Scientific precision is necessary in so many disciplines. I cannot imagine a life without the study of science. It has caused a great amount of controversy, though it has proved to be SO important to our lives.
One question I have just begun to consider is what lies in the future for the world and for all of us? If we will soon run out of resources and all that goes along with that, then how do we expect to perpetuate our life of technology. Will our creative outputs feel left out if the corporations take over? Will machines and 'faster ways of doing things' eventually dissolve our world away?
I hope not. And I hope that we soon learn ways to minimize our use of electronics so that we are no longer dependant on them for living. That is one goal I hope we succeed in completing. I want to see a more ethical use of the technology we are given. And while there are many large scale projects already existing, there are many more undercover individuals and organizations which undermine the progress made by the overachievers.
I hope we soon realise the world must become larger with some more restrictive boundaries, to minimize our travel and consumption. This may only need to be a temporary goal if sustainable energy is developed though, because with sustainable energy we can power the ships and planes and other modes of transportation. This allows for more transportation at a lower cost to the environment.
Eventually a cohabitable planet would be amazing. If we could all organize a system of trade where the economy and environment equaled a net benefit we would be golden. I hope to see serious progress towards that on all levels of class, religion, gender, and nationality within my lifetime. It must be possible. War is not innate. With education the instinct towards violence can be surpressed and mediated. With academic education the possibility for learning operation of armoury is deleted. With guns and violence not being present we are likely to be productive, healthy, and unstressed. Trade and political wars would also be marked as irrelavent.
I suppose I am very much a political idealist, though I see the struggle in change. I believe that art can change people. It is a powerful force. Unfortunately it is commonly used discreetly or with negative intentions through advertising, publications, and home decor. Without active attention to a piece of art, the beauty and intellectual stimulation is lost to the subconscious. I wish there was a way for us to recap an art sighting with people on the street. Then they would understand why they are attracted to the art and attach a word to that confused emotion they were struggling with while viewing the piece.
I want to extend this but I think I should get enough sleep tonight. It is nevessary.
I hope to have figured a few things out with OTHER people awful soon.
Maybe I'll actually be able to carry on a conversation about this stuff out loud in public. egads! :P
Good night non descript public world. :)
-Judi
Monday, August 17, 2009
Two songs I wish I wrote.
Smiling
ooh ooh ooh
ooh ooh ooh
I like to pretend you're watchin' me
could it be possibility
I wonder what you're thinking
ooh ooh ooh
ooh ooh ooh
Do you wonder if I have a heart
do you wonder if I play guitar
I do, but only one of the two
wooah oh..
You're beautiful, you are beautiful
you've got your nose in a book
and all I need is a look to know
you are beautiful, you are beautiful
you've got your nose in a book
and all I need is a look to know
to know you, you, you
From behind your coffee cup
onto the wooden seat that holds you up
you float, over to me
without leavin' your seat, or makin' a scene
I wonder if you live too far,
house, appartment, shopping cart
I hope you're warm when the night comes
oooh oooh ooh
oooh oooh woahh.
You're beautiful, you are beautiful
you've got your nose in a book
and all I need is a look to know
you are beautiful, you are beautiful
you've got your nose in a book
and all I need is a look to know
to know you, you, you
you leave me, yah you leave me
you leave me, yah you leave me
you leave me smilin' , smilin'
and I hope to see you again
I hope to see you smilin'
smilin', ooh smilin'
I hope to see you smilin'
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Great Big City
Intruiging, intruiging, you are so intruiging
It's something I just can't deny
I'd spend the rest of the night by your side,
sippin my beans, and breaking your ice.
Well sweaters aside, you are something that I've missed
and wished on for years and a day
it's both an honor and priveledge to meet you
I hope you remember me.
when you're back into the great big city
with those French communities
bummin yourself downtown
pullin money up out of the ground
bummin around
makin us so damn proud.
mmhmm
so damn proud.
now who am i kidding i'm no prize for wedding
you would make me look good
but you seem like the type who would open doors for me
and wait up until I dozed away sleeping
it's so sad you're leaving
leaving
to the great big city
with those french communities
bummin yourself downtown
pullin money up and out of the ground
bummin around
making us so damn proud
Intruiging intruiging you are so intruiging
I know.
Intruiging intruiging I just cannot seem to let go
Intruiging intruiging you are so intruiging I know
Intruiging intruiging I just cannot seem to let go
when you're back into that great big city
with those french communities
bummin yourself downtown
pullin money up and out of the ground
bummin around
making us so damn proud
so damn proud
so damn proud
so damn proud
so damn proud.
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Both songs are by Meaghan Blanchard, a friend of mine (and my cousin's ex) on PEI. She has an amazing folksy voice and writes her own fantastic lyrics and chords. :D I love the album.
ooh ooh ooh
ooh ooh ooh
I like to pretend you're watchin' me
could it be possibility
I wonder what you're thinking
ooh ooh ooh
ooh ooh ooh
Do you wonder if I have a heart
do you wonder if I play guitar
I do, but only one of the two
wooah oh..
You're beautiful, you are beautiful
you've got your nose in a book
and all I need is a look to know
you are beautiful, you are beautiful
you've got your nose in a book
and all I need is a look to know
to know you, you, you
From behind your coffee cup
onto the wooden seat that holds you up
you float, over to me
without leavin' your seat, or makin' a scene
I wonder if you live too far,
house, appartment, shopping cart
I hope you're warm when the night comes
oooh oooh ooh
oooh oooh woahh.
You're beautiful, you are beautiful
you've got your nose in a book
and all I need is a look to know
you are beautiful, you are beautiful
you've got your nose in a book
and all I need is a look to know
to know you, you, you
you leave me, yah you leave me
you leave me, yah you leave me
you leave me smilin' , smilin'
and I hope to see you again
I hope to see you smilin'
smilin', ooh smilin'
I hope to see you smilin'
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Great Big City
Intruiging, intruiging, you are so intruiging
It's something I just can't deny
I'd spend the rest of the night by your side,
sippin my beans, and breaking your ice.
Well sweaters aside, you are something that I've missed
and wished on for years and a day
it's both an honor and priveledge to meet you
I hope you remember me.
when you're back into the great big city
with those French communities
bummin yourself downtown
pullin money up out of the ground
bummin around
makin us so damn proud.
mmhmm
so damn proud.
now who am i kidding i'm no prize for wedding
you would make me look good
but you seem like the type who would open doors for me
and wait up until I dozed away sleeping
it's so sad you're leaving
leaving
to the great big city
with those french communities
bummin yourself downtown
pullin money up and out of the ground
bummin around
making us so damn proud
Intruiging intruiging you are so intruiging
I know.
Intruiging intruiging I just cannot seem to let go
Intruiging intruiging you are so intruiging I know
Intruiging intruiging I just cannot seem to let go
when you're back into that great big city
with those french communities
bummin yourself downtown
pullin money up and out of the ground
bummin around
making us so damn proud
so damn proud
so damn proud
so damn proud
so damn proud.
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Both songs are by Meaghan Blanchard, a friend of mine (and my cousin's ex) on PEI. She has an amazing folksy voice and writes her own fantastic lyrics and chords. :D I love the album.
Wednesday, August 05, 2009
Getting Over You
There's no way that's all I meant
there's still so much left unsaid
I just had to let you know enough
so I could clear my cloudy head
Everyword I said was truthful
Everyline was carefully planned
But it only skimmed the surface
of every word I'd previously canned.
I may be clumsy when I'm around you
but baby that's because I'm falling for ya.
Sooner or later you'll have to be pickin me up
off this hardwood cuz me, I'm havin no luck!
Of all the words I could have said
to right this wrong we left for dead
I chose the vacant empty phrases, only
keeping us in silent cages.
Lyrics, perhaps? hey Libster, I need you. ;) lol.
-Judi <3
there's still so much left unsaid
I just had to let you know enough
so I could clear my cloudy head
Everyword I said was truthful
Everyline was carefully planned
But it only skimmed the surface
of every word I'd previously canned.
I may be clumsy when I'm around you
but baby that's because I'm falling for ya.
Sooner or later you'll have to be pickin me up
off this hardwood cuz me, I'm havin no luck!
Of all the words I could have said
to right this wrong we left for dead
I chose the vacant empty phrases, only
keeping us in silent cages.
Lyrics, perhaps? hey Libster, I need you. ;) lol.
-Judi <3
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
Carrie Underwood - So Small
What you got if you aint got love?
The kind that you just wanna give away
It's okay to open up
Go ahead and let the light shine through
I know it's hard on a rainy day
You wanna shut the world out
And just be left alone
Don't run out on your faith
Sometimes that mountain you've been climbing
Is just a grain of sand
What you've been out there searching for forever,
Is in your hands
When you figure out love is all that matters, after all
It sure makes everything else
Seem so small
It's so easy to get lost inside
A problem that seems so big, at the time
It's like a river that's so wide
It swallows you whole
While you're sittin round thinking about what you can't change
And worryin' about all the wrong things
Time's flying by, moving so fast
You better make it count, cause you can't get it back
Sometimes that mountain you've been climbing
Is just a grain of sand
What you've been out there searchin for forever
Is in your hands
Oh, When you figure out love is all that matters after all
It sure makes everything else
Seem so small
Sometimes that mountain you've been climbing
Is just a grain of sand
What you've been out there searchin for forever
Is in your hands
Oh, When you figure out love is all that matters after all
It sure makes everything else
Oh it sure makes everything else
Seem so small
- SO all the girls from First Girls are leaving, and the university year is coming to a close. It will be unbearable to be away from so many beautiful people in Harper for 4 months...:(
This song makes me realize that this year was only the first of many with these people...and it made me realize alot about myself -- that I can struggle through school and still succeed, and still make friends, and still manage to attempt awesomeness through achieving simple things.
It is every small thing everyday that makes the memories! It is the loss of one thing that makes us realize we want it most!
I am excited for summer, but I will likely be more excited to be back here in September!
:'( it's a sad day. Let pathetic fallacy strike. Let the tears come, BRING IT ON!
:O Year 1 is only two exams away from being over!!!
The kind that you just wanna give away
It's okay to open up
Go ahead and let the light shine through
I know it's hard on a rainy day
You wanna shut the world out
And just be left alone
Don't run out on your faith
Sometimes that mountain you've been climbing
Is just a grain of sand
What you've been out there searching for forever,
Is in your hands
When you figure out love is all that matters, after all
It sure makes everything else
Seem so small
It's so easy to get lost inside
A problem that seems so big, at the time
It's like a river that's so wide
It swallows you whole
While you're sittin round thinking about what you can't change
And worryin' about all the wrong things
Time's flying by, moving so fast
You better make it count, cause you can't get it back
Sometimes that mountain you've been climbing
Is just a grain of sand
What you've been out there searchin for forever
Is in your hands
Oh, When you figure out love is all that matters after all
It sure makes everything else
Seem so small
Sometimes that mountain you've been climbing
Is just a grain of sand
What you've been out there searchin for forever
Is in your hands
Oh, When you figure out love is all that matters after all
It sure makes everything else
Oh it sure makes everything else
Seem so small
- SO all the girls from First Girls are leaving, and the university year is coming to a close. It will be unbearable to be away from so many beautiful people in Harper for 4 months...:(
This song makes me realize that this year was only the first of many with these people...and it made me realize alot about myself -- that I can struggle through school and still succeed, and still make friends, and still manage to attempt awesomeness through achieving simple things.
It is every small thing everyday that makes the memories! It is the loss of one thing that makes us realize we want it most!
I am excited for summer, but I will likely be more excited to be back here in September!
:'( it's a sad day. Let pathetic fallacy strike. Let the tears come, BRING IT ON!
:O Year 1 is only two exams away from being over!!!
Monday, April 20, 2009
4:12
My flickr name is dare.to.be412: so I wanted to know if there was anything in the Bible that my subconscious was referring to. Here's every 4:12 (4th chapter, 12th verse) that is in the book. Some seem absolutely irrelevent and others are quite immediate. I find it pretty fascinating. :O
Genesis: "When you work the ground, it will no longer yield its crops for you. You will be a restless wanderer on the earth."
Exodus: "Now go; I will help you speak and will teach you what to say."
Leviticus: "that is, all the rest of the bull—he must take outside the camp to a place ceremonially clean, where the ashes are thrown, and burn it in a wood fire on the ash heap."
Numbers: "They are to take all the articles used for ministering in the sanctuary, wrap them in a blue cloth, cover that with hides
of sea cows and put them on a carrying frame."
Deuteronomy: "Then the LORD spoke to you out of the fire. You heard the sound of words but saw no form; there was only a voice. "
Joshua: "The men of Reuben, Gad and the half-tribe of Manasseh crossed over, armed, in front of the Israelites, as Moses had directed them."
Judges: "When they told Sisera that Barak son of Abinoam had gone up to Mount Tabor, "
Ruth: "Through the offspring the LORD gives you by this young woman, may your family be like that of Perez, whom Tamar bore to Judah."
1 Samuel: "That same day a Benjamite ran from the battle line and went to Shiloh, his clothes torn and dust on his head."
2 Samuel: "So David gave an order to his men, and they killed them. They cut off their hands and feet and hung the bodies by the pool in Hebron. But they took the head of Ish-Bosheth and buried it in Abner's tomb at Hebron."
1 Kings: " Baana son of Ahilud—in Taanach and Megiddo, and in all of Beth Shan next to Zarethan below Jezreel, from Beth Shan to Abel Meholah across to Jokmeam"
2 Kings: "He said to his servant Gehazi, "Call the Shunammite." So he called her, and she stood before him."
1 Chronicles: "Eshton was the father of Beth Rapha, Paseah and Tehinnah the father of Ir Nahash. [d] These were the men of Recah"
2 Chronicles: "the two pillars; the two bowl-shaped capitals on top of the pillars; the two sets of network decorating the two bowl-shaped capitals on top of the pillars"
Ezra: "The king should know that the Jews who came up to us from you have gone to Jerusalem and are rebuilding that rebellious and wicked city. They are restoring the walls and repairing the foundations."
Nehemiah: "Then the Jews who lived near them came and told us ten times over, "Wherever you turn, they will attack us."
Esther: "When Esther's words were reported to Mordecai,"
Job: "A word was secretly brought to me; my ears caught a whisper of it."
Psalm: --
Proverbs: "When you walk, your steps will not be hampered; when you run, you will not stumble."
Ecclesiastes: "Though one may be overpowered, two can defend themselves. A cord of three strands is not quickly broken."
Song of Solomon: "You are a garden locked up, my sister, my bride; you are a spring enclosed, a sealed fountain."
Isaiah: --
Jeremiah: "a wind too strong for that comes from me. [a] Now I pronounce my judgments against them."
Lamentations: "The kings of the earth did not believe, nor did any of the world's people, that enemies and foes could enter the gates of Jerusalem."
Ezekiel: "Eat the food as you would a barley cake; bake it in the sight of the people, using human excrement for fuel."
Daniel: "Its leaves were beautiful, its fruit abundant, and on it was food for all. Under it the beasts of the field found shelter, and the birds of the air lived in its branches; from it every creature was fed."
Hosea: "of my people. They consult a wooden idol and are answered by a stick of wood. A spirit of prostitution leads them stray; they are unfaithful to their God.
Joel: --
Amos: "Therefore this is what I will do to you, Israel, and because I will do this to you, prepare to meet your God, O Israel."
Obadiah: --
Jonah: --
Micah: "But they do not know the thoughts of the LORD; they do not understand his plan, he who gathers them like sheaves to the threshing floor.
Nahum: --
Habbakuk: --
Zephaniah: --
Haggai: --
Zechariah: "Again I asked him, "What are these two olive branches beside the two gold pipes that pour out golden oil?"
Malachi: --
Matthew: "When Jesus heard that John had been put in prison, he returned to Galilee"
Mark: "so that, 'they may be ever seeing but never perceiving, and ever hearing but never understanding; otherwise they might turn and be forgiven!' "
Luke: "Jesus answered, "It says: 'Do not put the Lord your God to the test.' "
John: "Are you greater than our father Jacob, who gave us the well and drank from it himself, as did also his sons and his flocks and herds?"
Acts: "Salvation is found in no one else, for there is no other name under heaven given to men by which we must be saved."
Romans: "And he is also the father of the circumcised who not only are circumcised but who also walk in the footsteps of the faith that our father Abraham had before he was circumcised."
1 Corinthians: "We work hard with our own hands. When we are cursed, we bless; when we are persecuted, we endure it"
2 Corinthians: "because we know that the one who raised the Lord Jesus from the dead will also raise us with Jesus and present us with you in his presence."
Galatians: "I plead with you, brothers, become like me, for I became like you. You have done me no wrong."
Ephesians: "to prepare God's people for works of service, so that the body of Christ may be built up"
Philippians: "Now I want you to know, brothers, that what has happened to me has really served to advance the gospel."
Colossians: "Epaphras, who is one of you and a servant of Christ Jesus, sends greetings. He is always wrestling in prayer for you, that you may stand firm in all the will of God, mature and fully assured."
1 Thessalonians: "so that your daily life may win the respect of outsiders and so that you will not be dependent on anybody."
2 Thessalonians: --
1 Timothy: "Don't let anyone look down on you because you are young, but set an example for the believers in speech, in life, in love, in faith and in purity."
2 Timothy: "I sent Tychicus to Ephesus."
Titus: --
Philemon: --
Hebrews: "For the word of God is living and active. Sharper than any double-edged sword, it penetrates even to dividing soul and spirit, joints and marrow; it judges the thoughts and attitudes of the heart."
James: "There is only one Lawgiver and Judge, the one who is able to save and destroy. But you—who are you to judge your neighbor?"
1 Peter: "Dear friends, do not be surprised at the painful trial you are suffering, as though something strange were happening to you."
2 Peter: --
1 John: "No one has ever seen God; but if we love one another, God lives in us and his love is made complete in us."
2 John: --
3 John: --
Jude: -- (1:4 =For certain men whose condemnation was written about[a] long ago have secretly slipped in among you. They are godless men, who change the grace of our God into a license for immorality and deny Jesus Christ our only Sovereign and Lord.)
Revelation: -- (4:11 = "You are worthy, our Lord and God, to receive glory and honor and power, for you created all things, and by your will they were created and have their being.")
Also, here's the Numbers 12 (4th book, 12th chapter):
Miriam and Aaron Oppose Moses
1 Miriam and Aaron began to talk against Moses because of his Cushite wife, for he had married a Cushite. 2 "Has the LORD spoken only through Moses?" they asked. "Hasn't he also spoken through us?" And the LORD heard this.
3 (Now Moses was a very humble man, more humble than anyone else on the face of the earth.)
4 At once the LORD said to Moses, Aaron and Miriam, "Come out to the Tent of Meeting, all three of you." So the three of them came out. 5 Then the LORD came down in a pillar of cloud; he stood at the entrance to the Tent and summoned Aaron and Miriam. When both of them stepped forward, 6 he said, "Listen to my words:
"When a prophet of the LORD is among you,
I reveal myself to him in visions,
I speak to him in dreams.
7 But this is not true of my servant Moses;
he is faithful in all my house.
8 With him I speak face to face,
clearly and not in riddles;
he sees the form of the LORD.
Why then were you not afraid
to speak against my servant Moses?"
9 The anger of the LORD burned against them, and he left them.
10 When the cloud lifted from above the Tent, there stood Miriam—leprous, [a] like snow. Aaron turned toward her and saw that she had leprosy; 11 and he said to Moses, "Please, my lord, do not hold against us the sin we have so foolishly committed. 12 Do not let her be like a stillborn infant coming from its mother's womb with its flesh half eaten away."
13 So Moses cried out to the LORD, "O God, please heal her!"
14 The LORD replied to Moses, "If her father had spit in her face, would she not have been in disgrace for seven days? Confine her outside the camp for seven days; after that she can be brought back." 15 So Miriam was confined outside the camp for seven days, and the people did not move on till she was brought back.
16 After that, the people left Hazeroth and encamped in the Desert of Paran.
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Anyways, I don't know what I conclude from this, but it's interesting, and just plain NEAT/ Fun.
:) <3 V
Genesis: "When you work the ground, it will no longer yield its crops for you. You will be a restless wanderer on the earth."
Exodus: "Now go; I will help you speak and will teach you what to say."
Leviticus: "that is, all the rest of the bull—he must take outside the camp to a place ceremonially clean, where the ashes are thrown, and burn it in a wood fire on the ash heap."
Numbers: "They are to take all the articles used for ministering in the sanctuary, wrap them in a blue cloth, cover that with hides
of sea cows and put them on a carrying frame."
Deuteronomy: "Then the LORD spoke to you out of the fire. You heard the sound of words but saw no form; there was only a voice. "
Joshua: "The men of Reuben, Gad and the half-tribe of Manasseh crossed over, armed, in front of the Israelites, as Moses had directed them."
Judges: "When they told Sisera that Barak son of Abinoam had gone up to Mount Tabor, "
Ruth: "Through the offspring the LORD gives you by this young woman, may your family be like that of Perez, whom Tamar bore to Judah."
1 Samuel: "That same day a Benjamite ran from the battle line and went to Shiloh, his clothes torn and dust on his head."
2 Samuel: "So David gave an order to his men, and they killed them. They cut off their hands and feet and hung the bodies by the pool in Hebron. But they took the head of Ish-Bosheth and buried it in Abner's tomb at Hebron."
1 Kings: " Baana son of Ahilud—in Taanach and Megiddo, and in all of Beth Shan next to Zarethan below Jezreel, from Beth Shan to Abel Meholah across to Jokmeam"
2 Kings: "He said to his servant Gehazi, "Call the Shunammite." So he called her, and she stood before him."
1 Chronicles: "Eshton was the father of Beth Rapha, Paseah and Tehinnah the father of Ir Nahash. [d] These were the men of Recah"
2 Chronicles: "the two pillars; the two bowl-shaped capitals on top of the pillars; the two sets of network decorating the two bowl-shaped capitals on top of the pillars"
Ezra: "The king should know that the Jews who came up to us from you have gone to Jerusalem and are rebuilding that rebellious and wicked city. They are restoring the walls and repairing the foundations."
Nehemiah: "Then the Jews who lived near them came and told us ten times over, "Wherever you turn, they will attack us."
Esther: "When Esther's words were reported to Mordecai,"
Job: "A word was secretly brought to me; my ears caught a whisper of it."
Psalm: --
Proverbs: "When you walk, your steps will not be hampered; when you run, you will not stumble."
Ecclesiastes: "Though one may be overpowered, two can defend themselves. A cord of three strands is not quickly broken."
Song of Solomon: "You are a garden locked up, my sister, my bride; you are a spring enclosed, a sealed fountain."
Isaiah: --
Jeremiah: "a wind too strong for that comes from me. [a] Now I pronounce my judgments against them."
Lamentations: "The kings of the earth did not believe, nor did any of the world's people, that enemies and foes could enter the gates of Jerusalem."
Ezekiel: "Eat the food as you would a barley cake; bake it in the sight of the people, using human excrement for fuel."
Daniel: "Its leaves were beautiful, its fruit abundant, and on it was food for all. Under it the beasts of the field found shelter, and the birds of the air lived in its branches; from it every creature was fed."
Hosea: "of my people. They consult a wooden idol and are answered by a stick of wood. A spirit of prostitution leads them stray; they are unfaithful to their God.
Joel: --
Amos: "Therefore this is what I will do to you, Israel, and because I will do this to you, prepare to meet your God, O Israel."
Obadiah: --
Jonah: --
Micah: "But they do not know the thoughts of the LORD; they do not understand his plan, he who gathers them like sheaves to the threshing floor.
Nahum: --
Habbakuk: --
Zephaniah: --
Haggai: --
Zechariah: "Again I asked him, "What are these two olive branches beside the two gold pipes that pour out golden oil?"
Malachi: --
Matthew: "When Jesus heard that John had been put in prison, he returned to Galilee"
Mark: "so that, 'they may be ever seeing but never perceiving, and ever hearing but never understanding; otherwise they might turn and be forgiven!' "
Luke: "Jesus answered, "It says: 'Do not put the Lord your God to the test.' "
John: "Are you greater than our father Jacob, who gave us the well and drank from it himself, as did also his sons and his flocks and herds?"
Acts: "Salvation is found in no one else, for there is no other name under heaven given to men by which we must be saved."
Romans: "And he is also the father of the circumcised who not only are circumcised but who also walk in the footsteps of the faith that our father Abraham had before he was circumcised."
1 Corinthians: "We work hard with our own hands. When we are cursed, we bless; when we are persecuted, we endure it"
2 Corinthians: "because we know that the one who raised the Lord Jesus from the dead will also raise us with Jesus and present us with you in his presence."
Galatians: "I plead with you, brothers, become like me, for I became like you. You have done me no wrong."
Ephesians: "to prepare God's people for works of service, so that the body of Christ may be built up"
Philippians: "Now I want you to know, brothers, that what has happened to me has really served to advance the gospel."
Colossians: "Epaphras, who is one of you and a servant of Christ Jesus, sends greetings. He is always wrestling in prayer for you, that you may stand firm in all the will of God, mature and fully assured."
1 Thessalonians: "so that your daily life may win the respect of outsiders and so that you will not be dependent on anybody."
2 Thessalonians: --
1 Timothy: "Don't let anyone look down on you because you are young, but set an example for the believers in speech, in life, in love, in faith and in purity."
2 Timothy: "I sent Tychicus to Ephesus."
Titus: --
Philemon: --
Hebrews: "For the word of God is living and active. Sharper than any double-edged sword, it penetrates even to dividing soul and spirit, joints and marrow; it judges the thoughts and attitudes of the heart."
James: "There is only one Lawgiver and Judge, the one who is able to save and destroy. But you—who are you to judge your neighbor?"
1 Peter: "Dear friends, do not be surprised at the painful trial you are suffering, as though something strange were happening to you."
2 Peter: --
1 John: "No one has ever seen God; but if we love one another, God lives in us and his love is made complete in us."
2 John: --
3 John: --
Jude: -- (1:4 =For certain men whose condemnation was written about[a] long ago have secretly slipped in among you. They are godless men, who change the grace of our God into a license for immorality and deny Jesus Christ our only Sovereign and Lord.)
Revelation: -- (4:11 = "You are worthy, our Lord and God, to receive glory and honor and power, for you created all things, and by your will they were created and have their being.")
Also, here's the Numbers 12 (4th book, 12th chapter):
Miriam and Aaron Oppose Moses
1 Miriam and Aaron began to talk against Moses because of his Cushite wife, for he had married a Cushite. 2 "Has the LORD spoken only through Moses?" they asked. "Hasn't he also spoken through us?" And the LORD heard this.
3 (Now Moses was a very humble man, more humble than anyone else on the face of the earth.)
4 At once the LORD said to Moses, Aaron and Miriam, "Come out to the Tent of Meeting, all three of you." So the three of them came out. 5 Then the LORD came down in a pillar of cloud; he stood at the entrance to the Tent and summoned Aaron and Miriam. When both of them stepped forward, 6 he said, "Listen to my words:
"When a prophet of the LORD is among you,
I reveal myself to him in visions,
I speak to him in dreams.
7 But this is not true of my servant Moses;
he is faithful in all my house.
8 With him I speak face to face,
clearly and not in riddles;
he sees the form of the LORD.
Why then were you not afraid
to speak against my servant Moses?"
9 The anger of the LORD burned against them, and he left them.
10 When the cloud lifted from above the Tent, there stood Miriam—leprous, [a] like snow. Aaron turned toward her and saw that she had leprosy; 11 and he said to Moses, "Please, my lord, do not hold against us the sin we have so foolishly committed. 12 Do not let her be like a stillborn infant coming from its mother's womb with its flesh half eaten away."
13 So Moses cried out to the LORD, "O God, please heal her!"
14 The LORD replied to Moses, "If her father had spit in her face, would she not have been in disgrace for seven days? Confine her outside the camp for seven days; after that she can be brought back." 15 So Miriam was confined outside the camp for seven days, and the people did not move on till she was brought back.
16 After that, the people left Hazeroth and encamped in the Desert of Paran.
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Anyways, I don't know what I conclude from this, but it's interesting, and just plain NEAT/ Fun.
:) <3 V
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